Teardrop it is
I have officially decided to go with the teardrop shaped breast implant. My doctor and I think this will be the best option because of the way my skin stretched with the expander.
Because of radiation, the lower skin did not stretch as much as the top skin. Because of this, it is much fuller at the top, which does not look that natural. With the teardrop shape implant, the top fullness will be reduced giving a more natural look, which is exactly what I am going for.
However, I think that I really have to reduce my expectations. My mind knows that nothing will ever look right, but I think deep down I always thought I would come out looking like my "before cancer" self. My expectations were high. I know this, but I think having high expectations are OK. Many would say that I should just be happy that everything is going so well. And don't get me wrong, I am grateful everyday that my biggest worry is an implant. However, I also don't want to live a life settling for things just because I am a live. I should be living my life to the fullest and that includes my recovery expectations. I should expect the best.
But after talking with my doctor, I also have to be realistic and radiation really did screw up my skin. It is what it is, and I can't go back and change things. I just have to work with what I got.
My surgery should be in a couple weeks. The day is still getting worked out. But I am excited to finally be moving on to the next step of reconstruction.
